Hello December!

So December has finally fallen upon us and it won't be long until Christmas is knocking at our door!


I love Christmas, I love everything about it :)

I am so grateful that even through our hard times over the past three and a half years, we have had Jakson to make Christmas special.

I know many friends out there at the moment who are not only going to find Christmas hard but the lead up to Christmas. All the families in the shops, the decorations and all things festive that fill our shops, streets and homes.

Over the past year I have had friends suffer miscarriages, go through the tragedy of watching their child become an angle in heaven, have relationship breakdowns, and go through many unsuccessful IVF attempts.



I wish there was something I could do to make it magically better for them all. I wish I could tell them it's going to be ok, but I can't say that because I don't know.


I want to be able to enjoy Christmas as a pregnant lady, I want to rub my belly and show it off as it grows but I am very conscious as to how hurtful it can be for those around me.

Even something as simple as Facebook always puts me in a bit of a dilemma. I want to be able to share our progress with everyone, but I also know what it is like to see pregnancy updates when you are sitting there in tears thinking it may never happen for you.
I hate to admit it but I did 'hide' friends on Facebook that were pregnant, just because I couldn't bare to see their pregnancy updates. As much as I wanted to share in it with them and be joyous, my own bitterness and fear stopped me from doing that.

I have thought about blocking some friends from seeing my pregnancy posts, but I know it's not my place to try and protect others. However I would not be offended at all if they were to hide my posts to protect themselves.


I hope that no matter what people are going through, they are able to find some joy during this time. Something to make them smile, laugh and even if just for a few minutes, something to make them forget the hard time they are going through.