The shops are starting to fill with all things Christmas, which is something I usually love seeing but I had a moment today where I was taken back to this time last year...
I was shopping for Christmas stockings to be able to hang up, one for Jakson, Johnny, me and I was also looking for one to buy as an extra because by Christmas 2010 we would surely have another addition in our family.
How wrong I was. At this time last year I would never ever had thought that we would be at the stage of IVF, let alone having gone through an unsuccessful IVF cycle.
It was hard when I walked into the shop today and turned down the aisle that had the Christmas stockings, I really was taken right back to the day I was shopping for them and how determined I was to find 4 that I liked so we would have one for the baby.....the excitement I felt that I would have a baby by this Christmas, I wish I could feel that excitement again, I wish I could be sure we will have a baby by Christmas 2011....but I'm really not sure of anything anymore.
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