Guilt

Guilt is a feeling that we all feel from time to time but it's funny the things we feel guilty about.

There are general things that we all know we should feel guilty about, stealing, lying, hurting others.... but there are other things that we feel guilty about even though it is out of our control or we have no reason to feel guilty for it.

For me, one of those things is talking about our struggles.
We are very blessed to have a child, and I feel guilty when I talk about what we are going through with infertility because I know there are many many out there who don't have a child and are going through the same thing as us.

I feel guilty for talking about what we are going through, our pain, our struggles, our treatments....all of it.
I know I shouldn't feel guilty, in fact I have a lot of people thank me for talking about it and opening their eyes to not only infertility but also secondary infertility but guilt still creeps in there.

It's probably one of the reasons I didn't talk about things for a while, it took over a year for me to open up about what was happening with us and probably the only reason I did start opening up was because I needed the support and advice from others.

I've said it before that pain cannot be measured and especially the pain of infertility because it is just so personal and I think that is why I feel guilty, I would hate to think that me talking about our pain is making someone elses worse.