A juggling act

One of the hard parts I have found with dealing with infertility is trying to fit in all the appointments.

Most of the time you don't get very much notice of when your appointments, tests, or procedures will be as it all depends on when your cycle starts.

You may expect to go for one scan and end up having to go back for 3 or 4 more that week, or a blood test or other test....there is no set schedule for IVF treatment and that can make it very hard to try to organise your life around.


If we do another cycle we are going to try and do it when I'm not working so I don't have that added stress of having to run between work and appointments, or trying to fit everything in.

I think I might also have to ask for help a bit more with Jakson.
I really don't like asking people to look after him or drop him off/pick him up from kinder but I think I might have to get over that and start asking for help.
It's really not fair on him that I have to wake him up at 6am so he can come into the city with me for an early appointment.

Just last week I had to take him with him for a 8am scan in the city, and it was an internal scan too! All I can say is I am very thankful for my iPhone - it kept him occupied so he didn't see anything or ask any questions ;) lol

What was hard though was having him in the waiting room with me.
He has come to about 3 appointments with us to our IVF clinic and I really don't like taking him because I know there are others there who don't have a child yet and seeing him can be very hurtful for them.



Last weeks appointment was particularly hard because Jakson was in an ultra cute mood saying things like
'I love you mummy' 'you are my number one girl' 'you are the best girl in town'
I know it would have broken my heart to hear a child saying these things while I was sitting there at my IVF clinic trying to get pregnant with my first :(
I didn't want to tell him to stop talking so I just kept trying to distract him and hope that we were called into our appointment soon


IVF and all the appointment that go along with it is a bit like a juggling act, and added into that the acupuncture that I want to do with our next cycle...it's going to take a lot of juggling to keep everything from falling into a heap......I hope I can do it