Baby names

We have been trying to fall pregnant for well over 3 years now and that is a lot of time to think about baby names.

Many, many, many times I have thought about what our next child will be named and while I don't have a definite name chosen, there are some names that I love (some since I was a young teenager) and those names have been at the top of my list....however many friends and family have been lucky enough to fall pregnant and have their baby while we are still on this roller coaster and even though they don't know it, they have named their child a name that was on my list.

I know you can't own a name or stop others from using it but I will openly admit that I feel ripped off, cheated, angry, frustrated that because it is taking us so long to fall pregnant I now have to cross names of my list that I would have loved to name our child.

This probably seems like a really petty thing to get upset about, especially considering the bigger picture of what we are going through but it's these little things, these joyous little things that come with expecting a child that dig the knife in deeper, make the pain more intense because when it does come our time to pick a name for our child all that we have been through will still be there right back in my face when I know that some of those names are now off the list.

I guess sometimes it's the little things that really intensify the bigger issues