When is enough, enough?

When is enough, enough? When do you know that you can't take anymore?

I always wonder about people and how they know they have reached breaking point and if they do know they are at breaking point, than what do they do?

I honestly don't know how much more I can take, I am exhausted in every single way possible....emotionally, psychologically, financially and physically, just completely exhausted.


I don't know if I have the energy for it anymore, I know I will have to find it but I don't know how or where it will come from?

How much advice do I need to listen to, how many questions do I need to answer, how many times do I have to pretend being asked 'are you pregnant' doesn't hurt before I snap?

Most of the time I just want to curl up in a ball and cry or lash out in anger, but at the moment I just feel numb and that is the scariest feeling of all :(
To not feel anything when I know I should be, is horrible.
I would much rather be angry or sad than nothing at all.

I don't know how to deal with numbness. Will it pass? is this the warning signs I should be looking for?


I am as open and honest as I can be with people about what we are going through but that in itself is draining. It can be like groundhog day going over and over it all the time. Always filling people in on how appointments have gone, or what stage we are up to.
While I love that I am opening peoples eyes to infertility, it is really starting to take it's toll on me.


I don't have the energy for the facade that everything is ok anymore, that I'm ok or that I'm coping. I'm not coping and I'm not ok.