Injections!!!

So we have finally reached the point of having to do injections!
I never thought we would get to this stage, but here we are and how silly I was to think that we would be able to start this treatment without some bumps in the road!

When we discussed with our specialist the next step of doing Puregon injections (a drug to help your body ovulate properly and basically just do what your body is supposed to do) it was back in March. We had to wait to re-do some tests and for me to have my operation and than wait for my next cycle to start so we could begin the injections.

Now because we had to wait so long I didn't want to get the script filled and than misplace it, so I thought I would wait until I needed to use it before I got it.

Well my cycle started and I was due to start the injections on day 3, so I went to get the script filled and no chemist had it!
Johnny spent the next two days getting the script filled for me, it turns out that because it is so expensive ($750) chemist only order it in when needed - which makes sense, I just wish someone had told me!

So after much running around we finally got it, well so I thought!

When I opened the box I found needle tips and the Puregon cartridges...but no trigger pen that you need to actually give yourself the drug!

In a panic I rang the pharmacist, but she had no idea about the pen.
She looked it up and couldn't find anything about it, she called other pharmacists and they knew nothing either!

I was really starting to panic and getting very stressed now, it was now 6pm of day 3 of my cycle and I had to start them than.

I went down to our local doctors to see if they could give it to me but they couldn't, it can only be used in the trigger pen!

Poor Jakson had been dragged around with me and now had to put up with a mum who was crying her eyes out, my poor little man didn't know what to think and just kept trying to make me smile and comfort me :(

We got home from the doctors and I paged our specialist who called me and said that I should be able to get the pen from the hospital first thing in the morning, which meant I would have to miss work the following morning and face peak hour traffic to get into the city to get the pen!
I was really not in a good state of mind, I was highly emotional and so angry with myself for not getting it all sorted sooner!

Trying to calm myself down, I posted about it on the parenting forum I am on and to my surprise one lovely lady who only lives 20 minutes away had a pen I could have!!!
The sense of relief was amazing, absolutely indescribable.
After everything we have been through, it may seem like a small thing but something finally went our way and worked out.
I cannot thank Abbey enough for going out of her way to meet me late at night to give me the pen :)

We got home and I got ready to give myself the first injection! ekkkk!!! lol

I put the instructional DVD on and tried to get Johnny to watch it with me, but sitting on the couch and covering your eyes really isn't going to help LOL, so he went off and got Jakson ready for bed while I did the first injection.

I didn't realise I would have to actually put the needle into myself, I thought it would be like an EpiPen where you just put it against the skin and press the button...nope!

I finally worked up the courage to do it and it didn't hurt at all, it was actually very easy to insert the needle. Pushing the drug in however, well that hurt! OUCH!!!

But it was done, I had given myself the first injection.
I had a lot of emotions happening; happiness, relief and sadness that it has all come down to this.

But like they say the first step is the hardest, so I've done the first one now and hopefully this is the cycle that gives us the much wanted positive pregnancy test!