A year ♥

Our beautiful girl turned one last week. One whole year she has been with us and what an amazing year it has been.

I think back to all the sleepless nights we've had (and still have) all the health and development worries, all the tears and fears we've gone through and then I look at my little girl and know that everything we've done has been worth it.
We have an amazing little girl who has brought to much joy into our lives.



Milly turning one also marked 12 months of breastfeeding for me.

For me personally, this is such an amazing achievement. I am so proud that I have been able to achieve this, all the tears and pain was well and truly worth it.

I love breastfeeding, I can't explain why or what it is that I love about it, I just do.

There was a few days about two weeks ago where Milly seemed to be turning off having breastfeeds.
I'll be honest, it had me worried. Although I have decide to follow Milly's lead and wean when she is ready, I know that at the moment I'm not ready to wean.
Thankfully it was only a couple of days and then she was back to having good feeds. But those couple of days made me really realise just how much I love feeding her  ♥♥♥






So much has changed within the past year, we've seen marriages, break-ups, welcomed new babies and cried as some have made their way to heaven,  made new friends and lost some old ones :( built stronger relationships and watched as others have weakened :(

But most of all we have been happy with our little family. We have watched as this amazing bond that Jakson and Milly have together has grown stronger and stronger.
They are completely obsessed with each other and nothing brings me more joy then seeing them play together. The look Milly has when she looks up at her older brother is just amazing, he really is her very own superhero.

The Internet - Friend or Foe?

The internet is an amazing tool but it is a very scary place too.

As a parent, one of the hardest things is thinking about the fact that I will not always be able to protect my children.

I know the time will come when my children will want their own computer, will not want me hanging around them when they are on the net, will have secret facebook accounts etc....

That time scares the hell out of me!

We don't know who our children are chatting to, have become friends with, sharing photos and personal information with over the internet.
There is only so much you can without invading on their personal space and growth.

We (a general we) are becoming much more aware about predators and how they groom our children, we are much more vigilant about talking to our children and informing them about the nasties that could be on the other end of the internet chat.

While we are moving forward in this aspect, another one I only see getting worse.


I remember being back in school and the bullying that would go on. But for the most part, what happened at school stayed at school.
Now days it is so very different. Bullying happens 24 hours a day, there is no escape for some children.
It's easy to say keep them off the net or take their phone away but that might do more harm then good.
For many children (and adults) technology has become apart of their identity, it helps to define them.



The extent and intensity that bully happens, especially on social media sites, is so utterly frightening.
And it's not just children or teenagers, it's adults too.

Even as an adult I have been a victim of online bullying. If adults do not know how to deal with issues in a mature way then how can we expect children to?

It is easy to write a nasty facebook comment, de-friend someone or in worse cases start a facebook page about them then it is to deal with conflict directly and get to the bottom of whatever issue there is.


Maybe it's time for schools to go back to basics and teach manners and conflict resolution.

We bombard our children with so much information, that the basics of human interaction, respect and socially acceptable behaviours has become somewhat warped.


Legislation will always be chasing it's tail when it comes to trying to keep up with technology, so we cannot rely on punishment and consequence. We need to work out how to stop this from happening, we need to make this not ok for people to do.

To go for a thrid or not?

With Jakson nearly 7 and Milly nearly 1, we have had the question come up a few times if we are going to have another one.
We've talked about it a bit and go from yes to no and as soon as we think yes, we want another one, the other question come up....when do we start trying and how long do we try for before we stop?


We know one thing for sure, we will not going down the fertility treatment path again. It's just not something that either of us can do again. It took so much from us individually, as a couple and as a family that it's not a path we can travel again.


To be honest, I am also still carrying a lot of guilt over falling pregnant. I see so many other ladies desperately wanting a baby and I've been blessed to have two....could I really be that selfish to try and have a third?


I can remember those who during the three and a half years of trying for Milly had two babies in that time.
I felt so much more ripped off that they got two babies in that time when we just wanting to have one.
I know how hard it must be for others who were trying when we were and are still on that horrible path trying to get their baby to see us going back for a third.


While I know intellectually that I shouldn't carry this guilt and that I have no control over it, emotionally and psychologically it haunts me.


So will we try for a third child? I honestly don't know at this point, I change my mind so much on it that I just don't know :(

9 months old!

Well haven't I been a bit slack with keeping up with this!

Our little princess is 9 months old now! 9 months that has flown by.


The last six months have been a busy time for us with the festive season, end of year, weddings, work and I've started uni too. Add to that all the usual ups and downs life throws at you and it's been a very busy time for us.

Milly is going good, although we have had some concerns about her growth. We had to see a paediatrician because between three and six months she lost weight. That was a pretty stressful time for me. I had a lot of doubt about my ability to feed her and if my milk was good enough for her. I had a few people suggest putting her on formula and it was hard to keep going when I was doubting myself so much.
But after a trip tot the paediatrician we were relieved to hear she was fine.

We are still breastfeeding (I can't believe we've made it this far!! :) and she is eating anything in sight, she loves her food :)

She is crawling everyone and getting into everything, highlighting how un-babyproof our house is LOL.
she is also saying mum and dad, well a lot more dad then mum BUT mum was her first word so that makes up for it :)


Jakson and Milly have developed are beautiful bond and I love watching them together. As soon as one of them sees the other their eyes and face light up, it's a really touching sight to see.
The play together, and Jakson is such a great helper for us. He loves to help with feeding, changing, bathing, playing with her......anything he can help with :)

It's hard to believe that our little boy is growing up so fast, in a few short months he will be 7 years old!


Not a day goes by that I don't look at them and think how blessed I have been. Two wonderful, beautiful and healthy children who are the centre of our world