With Jakson nearly 7 and Milly nearly 1, we have had the question come up a few times if we are going to have another one.
We've talked about it a bit and go from yes to no and as soon as we think yes, we want another one, the other question come up....when do we start trying and how long do we try for before we stop?
We know one thing for sure, we will not going down the fertility treatment path again. It's just not something that either of us can do again. It took so much from us individually, as a couple and as a family that it's not a path we can travel again.
To be honest, I am also still carrying a lot of guilt over falling pregnant. I see so many other ladies desperately wanting a baby and I've been blessed to have two....could I really be that selfish to try and have a third?
I can remember those who during the three and a half years of trying for Milly had two babies in that time.
I felt so much more ripped off that they got two babies in that time when we just wanting to have one.
I know how hard it must be for others who were trying when we were and are still on that horrible path trying to get their baby to see us going back for a third.
While I know intellectually that I shouldn't carry this guilt and that I have no control over it, emotionally and psychologically it haunts me.
So will we try for a third child? I honestly don't know at this point, I change my mind so much on it that I just don't know :(
Thursday, March 22, 2012
9 months old!
Well haven't I been a bit slack with keeping up with this!
Our little princess is 9 months old now! 9 months that has flown by.
The last six months have been a busy time for us with the festive season, end of year, weddings, work and I've started uni too. Add to that all the usual ups and downs life throws at you and it's been a very busy time for us.
Milly is going good, although we have had some concerns about her growth. We had to see a paediatrician because between three and six months she lost weight. That was a pretty stressful time for me. I had a lot of doubt about my ability to feed her and if my milk was good enough for her. I had a few people suggest putting her on formula and it was hard to keep going when I was doubting myself so much.
But after a trip tot the paediatrician we were relieved to hear she was fine.
We are still breastfeeding (I can't believe we've made it this far!! :) and she is eating anything in sight, she loves her food :)
She is crawling everyone and getting into everything, highlighting how un-babyproof our house is LOL.
she is also saying mum and dad, well a lot more dad then mum BUT mum was her first word so that makes up for it :)
Jakson and Milly have developed are beautiful bond and I love watching them together. As soon as one of them sees the other their eyes and face light up, it's a really touching sight to see.
The play together, and Jakson is such a great helper for us. He loves to help with feeding, changing, bathing, playing with her......anything he can help with :)
It's hard to believe that our little boy is growing up so fast, in a few short months he will be 7 years old!
Not a day goes by that I don't look at them and think how blessed I have been. Two wonderful, beautiful and healthy children who are the centre of our world
Our little princess is 9 months old now! 9 months that has flown by.
The last six months have been a busy time for us with the festive season, end of year, weddings, work and I've started uni too. Add to that all the usual ups and downs life throws at you and it's been a very busy time for us.
Milly is going good, although we have had some concerns about her growth. We had to see a paediatrician because between three and six months she lost weight. That was a pretty stressful time for me. I had a lot of doubt about my ability to feed her and if my milk was good enough for her. I had a few people suggest putting her on formula and it was hard to keep going when I was doubting myself so much.
But after a trip tot the paediatrician we were relieved to hear she was fine.
We are still breastfeeding (I can't believe we've made it this far!! :) and she is eating anything in sight, she loves her food :)
She is crawling everyone and getting into everything, highlighting how un-babyproof our house is LOL.
she is also saying mum and dad, well a lot more dad then mum BUT mum was her first word so that makes up for it :)
Jakson and Milly have developed are beautiful bond and I love watching them together. As soon as one of them sees the other their eyes and face light up, it's a really touching sight to see.
The play together, and Jakson is such a great helper for us. He loves to help with feeding, changing, bathing, playing with her......anything he can help with :)
It's hard to believe that our little boy is growing up so fast, in a few short months he will be 7 years old!
Not a day goes by that I don't look at them and think how blessed I have been. Two wonderful, beautiful and healthy children who are the centre of our world
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